Trust me on this...

Go and watch.

Its good.









I'm super tired now (tired is different from sleepy) and so going to bed. When i am tired, i couldnt be bothered with alot of things. Which is bad for those around me, cause i'm not bothered to put on a smiley face, i'd rather pet a cat. Tomorrow i'm going back to Penang (noooo!) for a planning retreat thingy. Honestly i'm not looking forward to it. But what to do-
life's like that ya'll...!

Red Box and Huddlers

Finally went there yesterday after like, a super l o n g time, and since its only my second visit there i was kinda blur about several things. For those that dont know, if you go at the non-peak time 11am-2pm you only need to pay for the lunch that you ordered, cheapest being Rm7 + 15% = RM8.10 for 3hours of fun. Not bad eh?

Terrible la, i ordered the pinapple fried rice, but there were no pinapples in it...(?) Out of the 3 who had the same meal, only one had a small bit of the fruit there...Its an outrage! So basically their pinapple fried rice is just fried rice. Dont kena con...


<--My SMDU pals...My goodness, seems like ages ago.














<-- One of my best buds Emily Chan Suet Mei (the one next to me) was my friend since Strd 1, in Australia now =(








Food wasn't the important thing though, i was glad i got to meet up with my Form5 friends that i've not seen in a long time, probably the last time before some go overseas. The change that struck me most was that most of them knew/were into Chinese music now! I was surprised...! Half the songs that were chosen were by fellas like Li Hom, Jay Chow..etc. The only song i knew how to sing, (and most banana's i know know how to sing it too) is the Tong Hua song by that Guang Liang dude... =)

Speaking of the chinese language, i called up a friend of mine and it went to voice mail and it was totally in chinese...I didnt even realise it was voice mail till quite a few seconds cause i didnt understand. Which brings me to something i've always thought about...Does the world outside Damansara Utama all speak chinese?!?!?

Going to local uni its so obvious that english is not the main language spoken by all. Its quite frustrating actually, to see the groups of cina's huddled in an air-tight circle *ching chiang sher pu sher huang hiong hua...etc* And it irritates me to bits! Its like, you're not gonna die if you dont speak chinese you know...

But the worst of the worst are those that start speaking to you in chinese, and when they realise you cant understand they say "You cannot speak meh? But you're chinese hor?" and its said with a upturned-nose, narrowed-eyes look...As if its some terrible horrible public toilet. When i say i never learnt, they move on to blame the parents "Your father chinese right? Why he never teach you?" Another stereotype is: You're from KL what...KL people all speak chinese...*roll eyes* Well, i guess i prove that statement wrong,huh? I really dislike it when people behave that way. I find it very rude. So what if i dont know chinese, so what if my dad never taught me? Does that make you superior?
Get over it...!

People also say : Then how do you order food?
Err, hello?!?! The kuey teow aunty and chicken rice man arent that useless la- they probably speak more and better english daily than the huddlers. They want business, so obviously they're not gonna not serve me just cause i cant order in fluent chinese. Sheesh!

Sometimes, no- many times, the questions people ask make me wonder if they're really that bodoh...Seriously. Or like i said- is the rest of Malaysia all like this?

I dont think i lose out in the big picture. Only socially perhaps. I'm fine and dandy with my english, and have no intention of searching for a job one day that puts me in the same circle as the huddlers.

Idiot Box

Hokay...So i've been home alot. And the t.v has been my best fren.....And this is what i've been watching:






1. Laguna Beach - MTV
It's like, so totally awesome! Imagine watching, like, super rich, thin mostly blonde girls tan themselves, and like, talk about clothes, boys and fall for super jerky rich guys...Its like, so cool! You'll definately lose some brain cells watching this...

2. National Treasure - bad quality DVD
Snot bad show la- came out as one of the earlier movies to use all the legends of the Knights Templar la, secrets la, ancient churches hiding treasure deep underground la etc etc. Lost points for the stupid romance the director just had to include.

3. The Bold and the Beautiful- Star World
Firstly, i am not a fan of this. Really! Its got the dumbest storyline, and the characters are all somehow the bro/sis/mom/dad/uncle of each other, sleep around like mad, the acting is horrible and yet- its been around since 1987...(seriously!) 19years...That has got to mean something.

4. My Own- MTV
Another show to either point out the urgh-ness of Americans, or a platform for viewers to become their own Simon Cowell. Contestants try to act, sing, dance like a certain celeb for a so-called biggest fan that because cant get the real thing, settles for the "next best thing", My Own: Jessica Simpson, Omarion, Kelly Clarkson...etc. Darn funny!

5. Sister Act 2 - Star Movies
Tis only worth watching for the singing scenes, not much else. So between scenes, channel surf all you want, just dont miss the ever famous part where the young guy does the glass shattering "..when Jesus waaaaaaaaaaa-aaaaaaashed...."

6. About a Boy - dvd
I like this movie alot. Maybe because its not American...The two most unlikely characters meet when Hugh Grant tries to go after sexy single mothers, but ends up befriending a un-cool, un-hip 12year old that sings aloud without realising it. Its starts with him saying how he disagrees with the saying that "No man is an island", and he is a bloody island but ends up changing his tune by the end of the movie. Good watch!

7. Love Actually- dvd
This time i caught it on tv, and i didnt realise till the end, but they've totally cut out ALL the scenes about the romance between the 2 stand in actors...Ish ish! If you've not watched it- i'll say it for the millionth time :
Go Watch it!

8. Scary Movie 4- dvd
Dont bother. Seriously, just dont. I was so bored and since my bro had the dvd i thought, okay- why not? I didnt get past the 1/2 marker even. Its SO not funny. I fell asleep watching it. If anyone reads this, and still chooses to watch it....I dunno what to say...

Being stuck at home sucks when there's nothing good on t.v.

Morning swim

Why is it when i want to sleep, when the couch is there calling so invitingly- i just cant nap.
Bah.
But its okay, just means i'll sleep even more soundly tonight.

For the first time (i think) i went to the Kelana Jaya public swimming pool, too darn early...Woke up at 8am with only four hours sleep...*$#@%!*

So anyway, after dragging myself outta bed and giving my swimming suit a heart attack that it was actually gonna see the light of day, got to the place. I didnt know it was directly behind the KJ Stadium where my school used to have sports day. Not knowing what to expect, paid the RM3 and followed Josh's lead. The first thing i noticed was- bloody hell, totally exposed to the great ball of fire. Yeah, i know majority are, so this ain't nothing new, but i can always dream for a shaded one right?
After putting our stuff down, we started to strip down to our suits. Now, the one reason why i was okay going in the first place was cause i knew i wouldn't meet anyone that i knew there, thus not worry about friends/non-friends seeing me in my blue suit.

But of course, i haaaaad to bump into someone there. Of all places and times, it had to be at the pool.

Josh:Eh, those guys are looking at us. I think he's from SMDU
-Shel slowly turns head and pretends not to look, sees dude staring straight at her-
Dude: *shouts* Hi Shelby!
Shel: Hi Gene ! (Crap)

Next, i waited until he started swimming to the other end, and with his back turned, i dashed into the pool. The less time outta the water the better. Its not that i didnt wanna see Gene, just didnt want anyone to see me....Kekeke..

I suck at swimming. Of that, i am sure. Many many moons ago my daddy taught me what he called "frog swimming", and for many many moons after that i didnt know that that was breast-stroke. Yes, i LoL at myself. Sure i can keep afloat, but on a technique scale i'm probably a 2.5/10
No matter. I was just glad to be swimming, except for the weird norm of the pool. Basically since its a rectangle, while catching their breath, people just hang around the sides looking at other people swim. Err....

The only thing i totally hate about swimming is i always get sunburnt. My own fault cause didnt put on sunblock, so the back of my neck and shoulders are red and painful.

Oww... =(

I dowanna be....

I got angry tonight. The kind that i cant control very well, where i can physically feel the blood start to rush. To avoid it getting worse, i shut off. But people dont understand that the shut down is a safety measure/precaution, like switching off the gas before a pressure cooker blows. Instead they prod. Prodding is bad.

I rarely get that feeling, and i dont like it.

At the moment, i'm fed up with alot of things. And at the moment means now, 3.45am. Just fed up lah- no biggie. People can talk their way out of anything, so why bother. I just wanna not have to wake up tomorrow with a smile on my face and do stuff that at the end of the day, may or may not be anything worth anything.

I wanna be mean, and say things that would hurt people.
I dont wanna be all sugary and un-me as if i'm under evaluation.
I wanna sulk and get others annoyed so they can feel like i do.
I wanna be able to just say screw it...

But its not about what i want.

He's Back!

Yay yay, he's home and back to normal...
Only difference is they shaved off a chunk of his fur, but no matter- Snubby's used to bad haircuts since i usually am his personal stylist and do a really bad job of it.

Little Dog also happy. The past few days he's been lonely, and we evil people tried to trick him that Snub was around by calling his name, and LD would look around for him and wag his tail. Kesian-nya...

He's gotta eat certain food, and take different pills. Thats the hardest part. Forcing him to down the lil coloured 'smarties'. He's quite smart, and when he knows its coming, he runs and hides.




But all that aside, i'm just so glad he's home.

Yesterday, was a happy day. I woke up knowing what that day meant to me, and was just plain happy. But i've come to realise that its only natural if i have a good day, someone else has a bad day, when things just all go, for lack of a better word- bad. Its the law of the universe i think, a way to balance things out.

For the first time in my life, i went to the TTDI Pasar Pagi Babi section...I've never ventured in there. My dad was the one that'd go in, and for some reason i created a scary image of it being a very bloody and disgusting area. I think cause my dad told me horror stories about hanging pigs heads and their insides...EVil dad, cause there was nothing of the sort! It was an okay place, decent and the vendors are nice people. Besides that, yesterday i learnt how to cook lala thanks to Auntie Cindy. I like lala, even though some say its not worth the effort for such a small bit inside.

Its worth the effort for me!

Brace yourselves...

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Tee hee!

Animal Hospital

What would you do for your pet?

Chances are only those that've had pets will understand how i feel.

Last Saturday i took Snubby and Little Dog to the vet, cause they both seemed to have an ear infection.









Well, once we arrived at the vet, LD was so scared, he was trembling violently. Poor baby...Snubby was first on the table, so he didnt have time to be afraid. We've been going to this vet since wayyyyy back when we had our first dog, Tracker- when i was about 6! Its in DJ near Jayadiri. Sadly, the usual vet wasnt around, and a super blurcase was filling in.

My goodness- one thing i do know that vets should do is ask more questions than a reporter. Why? Obviously the dog ain't gonna be telling her its problem, so the only way to find out as much as possible is from the owner. This vet- was. . . weird. She didnt even tell me what she was doing, she just went ahead with me standing there like a block of cheddar cheese, and didnt even inform me when she was done with Snub. For a few minutes she washed her hands not talking, and i had to ask if that was it... That visit set me back RM194 *sob sob!*

I hate taking my doggies to the vet...Its like going to the dentist, i can expect them to feel pain. And when they yelp from an injection or whimper from painful ointments- i feel it too. At that moment you know what its like to really love. When a helpless being is fully dependent on you and turns to you for protection. LD pressed his nose under my arm after getting the jab, and didnt wanna come out.















Yesterday, Snubby was worse. He was caughing and wheezing- as if choking on something. So my dad took him back and checked him for heartworms. Thankfully, he didnt have any, and was sent home with a "caugh". Thats all it was the vet said. Well, she was so wrong.
By 8pm, he could barely walk, was wheezing more frequently and had bloodshot eyes. When my dad came home, and saw him in such a terrible state, he immediately took him to find a vet. By then it was 11+ and he had to go all the way to KL, Jalan Tun Razak where there was an Animal Hospital still open.

Thank goodness, because it turns out that Snubby has a failing heart, and needed the medication ASAp. (my family pretty pissed at the first vet for not picking up on it at all) This morning, i went to visit him- he was looking and acting so much better. I was shown the x-ray of his lungs and heart, and the Dr. pointed out to me what was what. Snub has an enlarged heart, and to me from the x-ray, it looks huge for such a small dog... And there is some fluid in the lungs =(

Snub is a senior citizen already, he's turning 9 this year and like old people, his body is not so strong anymore. Sigh.

He'll be discharged tomorrow. I hope he'll be alright.

Break from...

I dont know if its good or bad- watching the whole season of a tv show in just 2 days.
Its all thanks to people who like to download stuff in bulk. Even music, now you dont just download one song, but the whole album- although you have no intention of listening to em.
But anyways,

Its good!

Basic plot- Michael Scofield holds up a bank in order to get sent to prison, where his brother Linkin Burrows is awaiting death by electrocution for murdering the vice prez's brother. Michael was a structural engineer working with the firm that designed and built the prison, so he knows the ins and outs of it all. He believes his bro was set up and is innocent, so gets in there in order to get him out before the execution, scheduled to happen in 1 months time.

I guess i like it cause its 'believable'. Everything does sorta make sense, and not too outta this world. Even cooler is the way Michael brings in the prison blueprints with him; on his own body:













The main character Michael, played by Wentworth Miller is one smooth dude. Everything about him just fits right, especially the way he speaks. Also, he has a super penetrating stare that's a major plus point.






Throw in a pretty prison doctor and a mixed bunch of cons, do the hokey pokey and thats what its all about.















I'm quite sad now that its over...And i hated the ending cause its exactly how i knew it would be.

With me wanting more.

Barbie Doll

Guys suck.
Recently when i was talking to a pal about dating, he told me this:

i dont give ugly girls a chance.sorry.nor do many guys, whether they admit it or not.hey it sucks and it aint ideal,but thats the way im programmed.

When i asked some others, someone did say he somewhat agreed. Darn it man...Are we girls to never get a break? Will this mentality go on forever and ever and ever and ever...It wont change by 2020 that's for sure. What gets me peeved the most, is now everything can be reasoned out/justified by saying things like "Oh, guys are built like that. Its their natural whatever to go after a physically attractive female as opposed to a non physically attractive one." Bullocks. I find guys who use that excuse, the guys who have brains are even worse than those that can't explain themselves. Why? Cause, that means you know why you do it, and yet conciously dont do anything to break free from that mindset. I dont buy stuff like, "Oh..i'm a guy.its not something that can be changed..." It can be changed.
Its a choice.

Another recent example that saddened me was how this guy, Yogi after nearly 3years in a relationship, starts harping on to his girlfriend, Cindy about her weight. Now the thing is, when he went into the relationship Cindy was the same size she is now and back then, he told her it doesnt bother him at all. Awwww, such a sweetie! Then half a year ago the comments start about what she's eating, what she wears, how she should lose weight....WTH?!? So, to try and make things better Cindy actually did make an effort to get more active and excercise. But she's naturally voluptous and will never be the skinny type Yogi seems to want. (Unless of course she stops eating and drinks only water all day, then can la...) Its nothing to do with his concern for her health, its totally just about looking thinner. Funny thing is, i never saw her as fat. Heck, if she's fat then i'm fat too! *Oh no, excuse me while i go stick my finger down my throat...*

Everytime i lepak with the guys, there's always a point where they talk about hot chicks, even if only for a moment, it must be mentioned. And there's a way that they say it...Its not in a normal, casual tone, "Ya know so-n-so...?She's hot. " But there's full emphasis on the words, particularly dragging the word hot. Know what i mean? "Oh yeah man, she's so hotttt!" I'm left sitting there going- Err.....So....? I really dunno what to say to them. Maybe i should act like a stereotyped dumb jock, nod my head and say "Yeah man, yeah man..." Its as if, by having the hotttt status, the girl is godified- put up there with Ronaldinho, DotA and Ferrari. Whatever man...

But it does get to me. How can it not? You sit with people that rave on and one about how attractive someone is, and i'm there with a pimple on my chin, messy hair, far from slim body. What kinda message does that send to me...(even though guys aren't even aware they send it) And how on earth can i build up on my own self confidence, when there's no way of escaping this sorta nonsense...?

I hope there'll never be a day when i'm in a relationship where i think my partner feels i'm ugly, or worse- he makes me feel that i'm ugly...

Midnight Madness

What happens when you're bored at 12am and open to doing crazy-ish things....









































SWIM!









Yeap, totally against the rules and regulations...But what to do? The pool is only 1.33m so the chances of a 6foot2-er and two 5foot7 people drowning is practically impossible.






<---Most difficult pose. Took at least 7minutes and Joshua getting dunked 5times.












<--Notice how Sam is crossing his arms over his tummy...? You can guess why la... =p


















<--- V. disturbing picture...











Our fun lasted about an hour, but all good things must come to an end...In this case, it was in the form of a dude wearing a blue uniform. I was cool, just gracefully exited the pool, but i cant say the same for Sam when he saw the security guard.....

































SHiTE!

Yes, i'm back again.
This time from Lumut.
Friday to Sunday i was there, attending the Sg. Nibong/Sg. Ara Family Retreat. Sadly, in saying yes to this one, i said no to my home church cause they were having their camp at Frasers Hill.
Why did i choose it?
Simply because while i'm gonna be in Penang for the most of the next 2 years, i would like to feel like i truely belong to the church, and not just an face that pops in and out. And i think it was a good decision.

I like the fact that its a smaller church than what i'm used to. I love it. All my life i've been a little dot in the midst of 350people. Although i do belong there, i sometimes i feel as if i dont. Its embarrassing when after so many years i still dont know most of the people...the aunties and uncles, and who is related to who, etc. But its not my fault...? Like, how would i know if X is Y's cousin and P is Q's sister-in-law. How would i know that? HOW ?!? And lets face it, its difficult as it is for me to remember names, let alone try and learn all the stuff that i should already know by now. Bah.
Getting back to Lumut- it was a good camp. Very informal, simple and laid back. As a family camp should be.

I promised to help out with the Childrens Program (jaga anak) so i actually missed 3 outta 5 of the talks. Taking care of 5-9 year olds make me feel like not having kids...ever! Hehehe.. Ups and downs la. On the one hand, there are the polite, well behaved ones *angels!* and on the other hand, there's the rude,disruptive ones *opposite of angels*. After 2hours with them, i was drained! I felt like i went through an intensive excercise program. Its just non stop action with them. But i can see how mean kids can be...And there's really nothing much i can do about it. One boy was always alone and said "I've got no friends here." Sure enough, the other boys didnt wanna play with him. =(

Lumut has nothing much, but for free time we could go to Pangkor in a van tour for a coupla hours, laze in the resort or follow a small group up a nearby hill. I chose option number three, and i'm glad. Twas an hour's hike up, but it was well worth it. Of the 17 that went, 8were children, and i do mean children (<10yrs) but they were the ones leading the way! As agile as monkeys and with amazing stamina, they reached the top first, with me just moments behind of course... =p Great to see their parents encouraging and giving them the confidence to not be afraid.


Sadly, we couldn't join the group for the final lunch as we bought 2pm bus tickets. 5 HOURS to get home okay! Ish! Why parents so good and took their kids for a holiday...making the highway jammed up. Let them rot at home watching t.v and playing computer games...



What i'll remember of Lumut:
1. Freakin hot
2. Makan places there very expensive
3. The town has an overall fishy smell
4. Orient Star hotel rears a chicken the size of a peacock