Butterflies and Rainbows

I sit in the quiet, listening to music. The music is playing, but it is quiet.
Each day the hostel gets more and more silent and still. Except at night. The sounds of celebration and freedom echo around the buildings. "Its not fair!" the little voice inside me says.
I watch the birds, they take what they need and fly off.
My calender says i've got 8days to go, till i can be happy like the rest and go home. But the joy will be short lived. I am not happy.

I'm not happy because i'll have only 24hours at home. I have a hole in my tooth, so i'll be spending some of that precious 24hours at the dentist. I have to pack, unpack and pack. I wanted to attend something, but now no mood. I have a party to go to that i probably will end up standing akwardly in a corner holding a cup of bubble-less Coke grinning like a mad auntie wishing i wasn't there in my frumpy clothes while the kontangs walk about throwing back their straightened long hair in girlish laughter. *shudder*
I wanna be Jack Bauer.
Except with a cool-er surname.

Hmm, the kakak outside is spraying my door with water. Cleaning time. Kakak spelt backwards is kakak.

My quietness is disturbed by the rubbish truck outside. Like clockwork, each morning at this time it is there. Grinding, squashing, mashing, compressing my maggi mee packet and empty shampoo bottle. The sampah men are a jolly bunch. I like how they hang onto the side of the truck as it makes its rounds, faces covered with self-made masks that probably doesnt really help much. Darn long it takes, *continuous sound of drrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....* for about 15minutes, just outside my window. But its okay, i dont mind it. They're just doing their job, getting rid of what i produce. Maybe one morning i should buy them teh-ais.
Yes, i shall.

Last night i was so happy. Unexplained happiness. The kind of happiness that feels like it can explode from within you and splatter the walls with butterflies, stars, flowers and rainbows.

It would be nice to have butterflies and rainbows everyday.

Neutral Tones

So terrible, just told my friend i felt like tying up a stereotyped Singaporean to a chair and torturing him by forcing him to watch Tellytubbies all day long.


<-- My msn drawing skills





I'm not sure why, but thats how i felt recently.
Both the torturer and the tortured.

The most exciting and amusing thing of the day was finding out Mathew Thomas has a concussion...Kekeke, its not a funny thing, but since he is alright, i was tickled cause the only times i ever hear that word is on t.v. when the heroic doctor kneels down, pries open the eyelids and peers into the injured persons' eyeballs, and says dramatically "Its okay, you dont have a concussion..."

Its been another boring day stuck in my room.
TITAS (Tamadun Islam) exam on Thursday...I hate Sejarah.
Thank goodness its multiple choice.

Last night i dreamt that i was swimming with my friends in the sea, and the Incredible Hulk joined us. Bizarre

OH! My Two Way One Way Street picture came out in the Star yesterday, woo-hoo! Sadly, didnt win the rm50 but who cares! Cheap thrills make my day...

Who controls the past controls the future.

Who controls the present controls the past.

-1984-

Yesterdays' News

2 down , 4 to go....
I hate exams.

Yesterday, i read in the Star paper about a Singaporean dude who jumped to his death. I dont know when it actually happened, but the loud, big headline cought my attention, and initially i laughed over it, but by the end of the article, i was sad.

'Small' penis drives teenager to suicide
Singapore - An 18-year-old student jumped to his death because he was convinced his genitals were too small, a Singapore coroner's report said on Wednesday.

In delivering the verdict of suicide, state Coroner Tan Boon Heng said that the incident highlighted the importance of sex education in and outside schools.The junior college student's death showed that even intelligent young people can be "victims of misinformation," Tan said."The deceased was so tormented by his unfounded (belief in his) inadequacy that it drove him to end his life," the ruling said.

The case is being forwarded to the ministry of education.Sex education in the city-state is delivered as a short series of lessons "If parents are aware of their children being tormented... they should seek professional help, lest such tragic deaths should happen again," said the report, published in The Straits Times.

The student, a member of the school volleyball team and described as "cheerful and energetic," jumped from a housing block on March 3.

The youth had confided in his mother in October that he was worried that his private parts were too small.She took him to a clinic, where the doctor told him that his penis was a normal size for an Asian man and prescribed multi-vitamins.

The son told his mother in January that his life was "boring and meaningless" and that the only thing stopping him from suicide was his family's love.Despite strong emotional support from his girlfriend, he remained convinced that he had a problem.

His sister sent him a text message on March 3 asking if he was coming home for dinner.He replied that he would eat out. The next and final message she received told her and their mother to take care.

In a suicide note, he apologised to his girlfriend and family for killing himself.He said it was not due to the stress of his exams, "but it was more about his physical development. ... He still knew there was something wrong with his body parts," the investigation report said.

Very sad....
I can sorta understand, or rather have a tiny inkling of how he felt. I have days where i feel certain ways about my own body. But i can control it. Those i talked to about it say he's probably mentally sick and watched too much porn. Maybe. Still, it is unfortunate he thought that way. And yes, sex education is SO needed in Asian countries.

A two way one way

I've never seen this sorta Jalan Sehala sign before... And if the cars can each go one way around the building, wont they eventually crash round the back...? Kekeke...

=p

Letters

There can be good letters, and there can be bad letters...
This morning, as i was reading the paper, my roommate comes along and passes me the mail that was in our lil mail box. I got 3 letters! Wah, so excited and happy....! Seriously, those who are away from home would agree there's such a YAY feeling that comes from getting letters. (Suria didnt get, so she jealous...)


<--Easter Card from Suet Mei, TLC newsletter from Aunty Nancy, Postcard from person with unknown signature





However, Suria did come back with some bad news...






BAH!
Few weeks ago we got saman, and the thing is i wasn't in Penang when the incident happened. So obviously it could only be one other person la, but they saman both nontheless...I wrote my objection letter giving my reasoning, but it was rejected!


<--The Saman














Dear Friend,
Please check the photo at the office. There is really, and truly something hanging from the window. Perhaps the item belongs to your roomate. Ask your roomate to write letter if the item does not belong to you.
*Fine still imposed unless roommate admits its hers*

Intermediate Saturday

<-my notice board

I'm back in my room.
For some reason, everytime i say, "No i'm not gonna go back for break", i end up going back.
And its not my fault! (Honestly!)

Last weekend i was up in Cameron Highlands, went to visit the RBS staff and just chill (kekeke...).
Getting there was stressful, 6.30am i started walking to Sg. Nibung bus station, cause i wasnt sure if there would be public transport so early in the morning. Bloody hell, i could've slept in longer cause it took me only 1/2 hour to get there and had to wait a whole hour for my 8am bus. I didnt know i was such a fast walker...
The plan was to meet Jon in Tapah, and we take the bus up together.
Anyways, the ticket seller told me the fastest way to Tapah would be to go to Ipoh first, then get another bus to Tapah.

Hah!

When i reached Medan Keeds (horrible public toilets) there was no bus to Tapah. I would first have to take a bus to Kampar, then from there to Tapah and that would be almost 2hours.
In the end i had to change plans and get a bus straight up, and kena marah by the C.S. Travel bus uncle who said "Why you never take from Penang straight?!?! Faster! Why you wan go Tapah? Who said can go Tapah from here?!..scold...scold..." *Shy*

But travelling alone and unprepared is kinda exhilarating. Except for the toilets that is....


"Why you never tell me you're back?"

i hate that question, and i get it ALL the time i come back.
And i dont understand why people even bother asking it? Do you really want the answer?
Am i supposed to send out a mass sms saying, "Hi guys. I'm coming back for a few days, but i most probably wont have time to see you anyway. But i hope you feel glad that i informed you...Shelby."
Sound mean do i? But honestly, what can i do?
Its not that i dont want to meet up with everyone. But i did have my own plans, and limited time...so how?

One of them involved going to Sabak Bernam for the "tombstone placing ceremony" Basically, the feng-shui man came and using his calculations thingamajig, decided which direction my grandpa's tombstone should face, (*eyebrows raised* Right.......) while the family stood round and melted in the blazin hot sun.

Then there was an important birthday on Thursday. Stressful, cause spent many hours worrying and wondering about what to buy...Thank you Squatto and Mr. Beautiful for helping, and slapping some sense into me. Am sorry for making your lives hell... But the fish was bright orange! At the end of the day, what really mattered is that i managed to spend time with him on his birthday, so...yay!

Now i'm back in my hostel. And here's the best part, i'm writing this in my room!
Kekeke, yup- for some reason the Wireless connection is back. Bet is wont last.


Right. Exams starting next week.
Can't believe my first year of uni will soon be over.

*Everytime around Easter i remember LeAnn Rimes song, Ten Thousand Angels Cried. I think it was Obi-Mun that told me about it many years ago.*

Stillness filled the Heavens, on crucifixion day.
Some say it rained, I don't know if it's true.
Well, I can just imagine ten thousand angels crying
That would seem like rain to me and you.

The angels all stood ready to take Him from the tree
They waited for the words from His voice.
And when he asked the father why has thou forsaken me.
They watched the saviour die of his own choice.

I've never seen ten thousand angels cry
But I'm sure they did
As they stood by
And watched the saviour die.

God turned his head away,
He couldn't bear the sight
It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.

As the son slipped away
The skies turned to grey
And when Jesus gave his all
That's when the tears began to fall

It must have looked like rain
When ten thousand angels cried.

Home made facial wash?

Oh my goodness.......
I never knew that buying nasi lemak would ever be so geli.
So, this morning i went to my hostel cafe to get food. I went over to the 'not-so-popular' food place. I go on an off, but only the last week or so i noticed a new worker there, a bapok. He's nice la, and friendly. As per normal, i do the usual chit-chat while he prepares the food.
As he hands me the plate, he stares at my face, studying it.

BP:Muka kamu ada pimple ya... (WTH?!?!)
Shel:Oh yeah, erm, very hot here so i peluh alot mar....
BP:Nak tau satu cara untuk bagi muka clear, tak de jerawat.....? Tapi cara ni agak kotor la...
Shel:Er, okay...
BP: You ambil underwear you, jangan cuci ye...Then you lap your muka with it, rinse then only cuci with the facial wash.
Shel: (CRAPPPPPPPP!) Oh...ye ke? Hmmm... *akward pause*
BP: Tak pernah dengar cara ni ke? Tanya orang Melayu, mereka sure tau...
Shel: Okay.....Bye....
*Walks away as FAST as i bloody well can*

A R G H !!!!!

Million Dollar Smile

This is Joshua Hooi


Super poser!

That is the purple blazer he got. (much better than my drawing...)
Everytime i walk past his hostel, i yell "Johhhhhhhhh-shuuuuuuahhhhhh!" and if he's in, he pops his head out the window and waves...
Kinda sad i only knew this dude for one year. He taught me something i will never forget...

He tought me how to use my mouth, my lips, my tongue....how to suck and blow.
Over and over he made me do it until i had perfected my technique
I remember, it was Sunday, October the 23 2005- and it was my first time.
When i first saw what i had to do, i was disgusted. Not only that, i was sure it would taste really bad when i swallowed.

Now for all you people who's minds are dirtier than Malaysia's public toilets, I'm talking about:
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BALITONG!

Kekeke...Learning to eat it was super fun though...

He will be leaving USM, and i will miss waving to him, and him waving from his window. As well as many other seniors. At the moment, i've no emo-emo feeling about it, however it'll sink in eventually. I admit i'm not that close to the people leaving, but some have left me with visions of who i'd like to be when its my turn to leave, and i think that counts for something.

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.
Theodor Seuss Geisel

Cause i had a good day...

Today was a good day.
From when I tumbled outta bed till now, such a happy happy feeling!
Going from my hostel into campus we gotta cross a bridge, and some students have set up a rather funny distraction. You cant miss it cause its directly on the walkway, and you need to walk around it to get by.

Its like the police barriers we see in cartoons, with the figure of dead dude etched out in chalk. Except this one is yellow masking tape. I’m sure its some study on how many people stop and look, or whatever, because as I was doing it, I noticed some guys taking pictures of us.

Watched V again today…kekeke, yes- its that good!
Glad Kevin joined us because I’ve never actually hung out with him, and it was great fun la. He’s one dude that has bigger spherical shaped objects that most guys, and is not afraid to make use of them ;p

There was this Jap chick walking around the hypermarket, and from the biscuit aisle, he wandered over to the fruit section, where she was, and started ‘examining’ the watermelons- all the while inching closer to her. Suddenly the girl turned around and stepped on his foot… Muahahahahah! I was having a hard time keeping my laughter silent. He of course was overjoyed, cause she apologised to him in a sweet, cutesy voice. And he acting all “Oh, its okay, no problem!” Squat. But it’s a tactic worth trying if ever I see a gorgeous hunk…
Overall a good day la, everything went well and even the squashed bus ride back from Bukit Jambul was funny, the bus driver was a jolly fellow that turned round corners too sharply and I almost toppled over at one point.

Penang revamped their bus system on the 1st of April, and so far from what I read in the papers, its causing much confusion. The council has only allowed buses that pass the test to be on the roads. Problem, more than half of them were superly cacat, and so now there are fewer buses- same amount of people…Go figure la. Not only that, the routes are altered, and no clear signs are available. I find it dumb to do things if not properly…If they were serious about revamping everything, they should’ve started with building proper bus stands, that has a map and bus routes clearly shown. While this is being done, at least the public can learn, and are prepared for what is to come. I pity the older folks used to the system for years, now thrown into confusion. Although it was in the papers, even I didn’t understand the explanation of the new system. My opinion, this move was too rushed.

My room is an utter mess, and thank goodness I’ve got a roomie that is like me. In fact, when I returned, I was greeted with this sight. What to do, it’s the best way to dry the clothes.

Suria's somewhere in the picture...Can you spot her? Kekeke...
(dunno how she burries herself under there)

CONGRATULATIONS JOSHUA HOOI WINNER OF THE PURPLE AWARD which is like, the greatest achievement a sports person can get from USM. The VC himself actually put the purple blazer on him. Way to go dude!!! Dont have a picture, but it might've looked something like this:

And just got the news that Sarah Yong was born!

=)

Congrats to Jin Ai and Foo Seng.
Nice birth date.

Goldfish

Have you ever tried playing catching in a lift before?
=p
Try it, not only is it hilarious, but you’ll know how goldfish feel like going round in circles…

Dragging myself outta bed for my 8am class ain’t fun, especially since its with that stupid woman that chased us from her lecture that day. I wrote down some stuff that she said which only proves how bad she actually is.
- Smoothing voices
- roses connotate to smelly and beautiful flowers
- the building was not taking care
- the rock turned death, lifeless
(yes, i am for real...i wrote it down as she was speaking...)

Since it was the last lecture, we had to fill in evaluation forms, and I told the brutal truth. According to the seniors, she actually came to class and asked who wrote bad stuff about her and threatened them. Terrible…If she does it next sem, I’m gonna make a formal complaint to the dean.


MOVIES

People, it is imperative that you go and watch V for Vendetta.
Warning: Must use brain.
But it is worth it, and its 2hours of your lives that will not be wasted.
Basic plot : Set in the future, England is under a gila-kuasa dictator and the government controls everything. One man stands up and fights the system…and the rest you gotta watch yourself. What I loved about the show is the main character that is brilliant, brilliant although completely behind his mask the whole time. He even quotes Shakespeare! Don’t hesitate, go watch. Tell me if I’m wrong.
V for very good.


Ice Age 2 is a Wednesday movie. I very much enjoyed the first one, because of the mature jokes hidden within the cutesy exterior. Although IA2 has cut down on that, it replaces the wit with visual humour, and the minor characters cause the most laughter. Plot kinda dumb. Good fun show, but very short, only 1hour 21 mins.


Me caught in the act of not paying attention in class...

...but so were all the other students!

Happy April Fool's Day

At last.
The week is coming to an end, woo hoo!
Actually, Friday was the killer day, assignments due and the PKA Farewell Night.
Pretty much didn’t sleep much, finishing up the work. Did the 7page essay from 4am till 8am, slept two hours to be woken by Mathew Thomas (monkey) sounding all chirpy and awake…Gah!

Since the Farewell Night was organised by the 1st years, i had to go there early. Departure time was supposed to be 2.30…actually departed much later-picked up musical instruments and arrived at almost 5pm.

I dunno what it is, but all the functions that I’ve been to or helped run, I’ve never had enough time to get ready, and its always a dash to pakai baju and pan-leng myself (which I don’t really know how to so ends up me looking plain.) I borrowed a lovely black dress, but it was slightly to big for me- bad cause its strapless (!) so ended up being held up by safety pins =p Don’t think anyone realised though…

The actual event…I had many doubts about it, if it would run smoothly or not. Can you imagine, supposed to start at 7pm, we were finishing the deco at 6.30pm and we never had any full run through. I’m the kinda person that gets quite anxious about these things, especially since I was emcee-ing with Chris. Thank God-everything went pretty much as planned. There was a time for sharing given for the leaving students, which was pretty emo. Several people cried, several almost cried, and a few were happy-ish. It was so nice to hear their stories, and words of wisdom. Many of them I don’t know that well personally, but I felt sad knowing they’d no longer be around next semester. To see the bunch that will soon be closing one chapter and going into the next phase in their lives…

Everyone always says your studying years will fly by and it’ll be over before you know it. Yesterday only it kinda REALLY dawned on me. I mean, my 1st year as a USM student will be over in a month’s time! And it feels like only yesterday I was driving up with my parents for my orientation. Must remember to make the most of my time here, that’s for sure.

Oh yeah, today is April Fool’s day…
A year ago I fooled Samuel.
Today, it was Joshua’s turn to kenakan him....
He’s a gullible sucker la =p
And I have no doubt next year he’ll kena again.

Looking forward to tomorrow, Hui Zhi’s coming up to find me…Yay yay, haven’t seen her since….(?)
We have a lot of catching up to do.
I miss those friends that I can just be me with. The understanding is there without having to explain anything.

Yawn. Will blog about the 2 movies i watched today another time lah..Sleep more important.